A few weeks ago, I wrote a post titled “Becoming Nobody (for a While).” Today, in my meditation, a sign appeared before me. A white rectangle with black letters. It said, “You are nowhere.”
Sometimes It’s Hard to Settle into Meditation
It took me a long time to settle into this meditation. Lots of thoughts and feelings. I kept releasing them into the earth.
People in my life, even some I haven’t seen for ages, popped in. And the characters from Drop-Dead Diva, which I’ve been watching.
Release them all. I don’t need them right now, I reminded myself.
The Question in My Heart
This meditation started with a question held in my heart space.
In his new book, Food Therapy, Luis Mojica writes about how eating connects us to the land. We eat the land. Bring the earth into ourselves.
I wanted to know how to strengthen that feeling in myself. How do I feel connected to this place I call home?
How do I experience belonging?
How do I stop feeling separate?
And the meditation answered by bringing me into the mystery.
Have you ever experienced a moment when you feel deeply connected to the earth, to yourself, or to something larger?
The Answer Unfolds
I don’t usually see signs in my inner work. I tend to feel and hear more than see. So this sign got my attention.
“You are nowhere,” I repeated to myself.
And I immediately found myself in my head. What does that mean? Where is nowhere? Who am I?
My wise observer sent me back down on the elevator into my heart and body.
“You are nowhere. Look around.”
I found myself gazing on virgin forests from high above. Bright green tree canopy, waterfalls, rivers. Beautiful.
“Good,” my inner voice said, “Now close your inner eyes and be nowhere.”
I heard Dr. Joe’s voice booming and reverberating: “In space…..”
At that moment, I couldn’t remember what he meant when he said that.
The Insight
“Don’t try to understand. Just be—nowhere, no thing. You’ll become everywhere. Everything.
Be here. Be now.”
And there, I found myself nowhere.
Experiencing silence.
Space.
Stillness.
Calm.
And gratitude. Along with Dr. Joe’s echoing voice: “In space……”
Integration
In this space, everything is possible. And out of those endless possibilities, how blessed I am to be here and now.
Inner and outer are coming together.
Seeming opposites becoming one.
Above and below.
Point and periphery.
All.
Nothing separate.
I am Earth.
An Invitation
This week, please join me for the video/podcast.
In addition to pulling a card from the Dreamer Path oracle deck and sharing some reflections, I guide a meditation about becoming earth.
Together, we become ancient trees—roots deep in the soil, hearts connected to the heart of Mother Earth.
Our hearts beat as one.
Then we draw golden sunlight in through the crown—connecting earth and sky, spirit and body/
A practice of grounding, belonging, and perhaps remembering that we were never really separate after all.
Thanks for being here.
With love and gratitude (from nowhere and beyond!)
Susan
